just a word from me

love begins with a smile , growth with a kiss and ends with a teardrop.maybe Allah wants me to meet a few wrong people before i meet the right one. so that when i finaly meet that guy, i know how to be grateful. i am nothing special of this i am sure. i am just a common girl with common thoughts. There are no monuments dedicated to me and my name will soon be forgotten.but i've loved another with all my heart and soul, and to me that has always been enough. i get the best feeling in the world when u say hi then smile at me bcse i know even if its just for a second,that i've crossed your mind.after i lost him. i've noticed that being with u, i smile more often, i anger a little less quickly. but all this are meaningles because u are not a single guy. u have ur gf. but u keep it from me just because u wanna be frend with me. dont u think that was so cruel. u treat me so nice so kind.u are there when my mind always keep in thinking bout my past time.u cheer my life with all ur jokes and your style.but the facts is u got a gf. u told me when feel are there. and u begged me to forgive u and accept u as ur best frend. what the?? but to be honest.i do like u as my frend.people might say that he's not ur type and you are not the good one that Allah destined for me. maybe.but aku pun tak baik..i was finally getting over you and actually believing i didn't need you. i was finally accepting that u had ur gf. just go and may Allah bless you dunia akhirat.. we are friend forever.. :)

my mr hockey

for the first time i went to stadium hoki.. funny right. since meet him he taught me a lot bout 'hockey'.. yaaa which is i dont even want to know. but its okay. just lend ur ears and listen on what he said bout his sport life. he is a sportmen. he played hockey. he's too active with all the programs. errr. good but bored. haha. for me he's cute and smart student. bijak belajar actif programs. the most good thing is org kuat JTMK. arghhh . when we  bumped with his juniour mesti macam ni..' eyh abg ies abg ies'.. ouhh okay. i gave u a smile. :D big smile..

22.2.13

first meet with you, first call from you, first text with you. and alhamdulillah am happy be friend with you. next day. was the first date. we went to aeon station 18, ipoh. he bought a food for his 'sugar glinder'. so sweet right. at night we went to ict ipoh. thank you for everything :)

weekend

assalamualaikum and hello. i had spent my weekend with him. he just a friend of me. but i really enjoyed my time with him. thank you for coming. next time please just come by train or bus okay. jangan berlagak meh. travel from kl to ipoh yeahh tak jauh. tapi penat jugak. one of my classmate always proud with her fiance. "her mr pilot".. the problem is he is not a pilot!! huh! so now can i mentioned that adrian is my mr engineer?? haha. too show off i think. thank again for the fresh flower babe. ok good , aku dah mula jatuh cinta dengan bunga. thank for helping me in many ways. " can i meet ur parent"?? ouhh no!! the problem with him is this. i understand. factor of age. no worries. in sha Allah. if we are meant, there's nothing to worry about.

proposed

im just 21.  dont have to think much bout 'life partner'. i just need to move on and focus on my study first. but  he proposed me so damn sudden. i just like hah??? Ya Allah. i do like you mr adrian. u are almost perfect to me. thanx a lot for the sweet ring and big fresh bouquet of flower. i never get a flower before. u are soo sweet adrian :) hehe. u made it. thanx. u had my heart. but this is not the right time yet. to be someome special and having a special friend is not easy for me. i dont want any term of ' frust' anymore. anyway... thank again dear !

if not, please don't

if you're not the next, please don't start that feel.i don't want to have any feeling yet. never cross on my mind this thing would happend.sometime i smile. how can i manage my life when i was there alone?? end up i managed it well. Alhamdulillah. so what is the big point here ?? nothing right. just start to be friend with 'him'.. but he is  a smart student. how i wish u could be mine?? smart and active. that is what i need. hopefuly. but i think this crazy thing won't work. he is bf to someone else. my focus is study and study. further on higher level. that is my aim. Amin..so please mr E. maybe tonight is our last meet. if we meet unintentionally im fine.i'll act normal. but to plan to meet up, maybe not. as u also don't have any intention. my bad because i did asked u for it. tonight i got it. i dont want to be a ' punca ' like u said just now. before i keep this crazy feeling on you, better i stop it here.. but i really need what i need from u. u know what i meant. help me in my studies. thank you for it :)